Being an introspective person (equal parts blessing and burden) I began to ask myself what it is that appeals to me about the show. Adventure, self-sufficiency, wilderness, danger, challenge were all words that occurred to me. In truth, it brings out the little boy in me, and also a hidden, dusty part of who I am as a man. The old desire for adventure, which courses through the hearts of boys and men. On some level I want such a life so I escape for a bit and watch Bear play out my fantasies by proxy.
A spoonful of Mac & Cheese. (I have little use for forks.)
A drink of Diet Pepsi.
Another drink.
Another spoonful of mac and cheese.
And back to the show.
The scene is farcical if you take it in in its entirety. Perverse even. The fit and toned Bear Grylls scrambling down cliff faces, dangling by one hand above certain death, swimming raging rivers, meeting and conquering the worst nature has to throw at him, and me- fat, lazy me- watching him wide-eyed from the comfort of my lazy-boy. My admiration for him does not translate into action. I enjoy taking in his exploits, but I'm not motivated to imitate him.
Another drink.
Another spoonful of mac and cheese.
And back to Bear who is skinning a seal carcass he found along the shore in order to fashion some sort of wet-suit from its disembodied hide so he can swim a stretch of the north Atantic, which separates the island he has landed on from the mainland.
Confronted as I was by Bear Grylls awesomeness I couldn't help but feel a tad like a flabby pretender. I want to be a praticipant. How much do I live by proxy? Do I do this with my faith- the most important thing to me? Do I pretend.
Not always. I'm flawed, but genuine for the most part. Though perhaps, at times I am guilty of studying the life of Christ with a similar detachment. I have sat in church and I have read the Bible in a manner similar to watching Man vs. Wild. I have, at times, admired and enjoyed Jesus without imitating him.
So I asked myself...
...am I eager to do what is good or am I just an admirer of what is good?
Does my understanding of Christ and what He has done for me translate into action in my life? His love for me was an active one. Is my worshipful response?
Is it transformative?
Does it govern me?
Has it motivated me to pursue holiness and reject sin?
Or am I lazy-boy sort of Christian? How about you?
or is it just another drink of sin. Another spoonful of the flesh.
And back to the program.
2 comments:
I absolutely relate to this post! You should see me dance in my imagination as I sit an watch the real thing. Then pass on the gym.
But what I really relate to is the spiritual analogy.
You seem to have a real gift for convicting me.
A sincere thank you for that.
Your brother had similar thoughts here.
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